Juliet, Elizabeth... those fancy names of a
pain-staking, lovely novels are all unnecessary; what we need now is only the
story between us – trust, belief, and sincerity are things that only matters to
put an end to this story.
Umbrellas, rain boots, scarfs, backpacks,
and necklaces were all blue that day – especially, yours – Once yours were
dazzled under the orange sunlight, sparkling throughout the empty spaces
between us, dancing into my ears, whispering your delighted happiness, although
vague. Truly, vivid trembles were inside my fingers, as if they are stamped
inside the beats of my heart. Never to be dampened, I drew every minute details
of your memory till I even forget those of me. What if the time stopped there,
without lengthening numerous sweetness, happiness, and sadness.
Never thought of the strong headed,
obstinate, fastidious characters of yourself. But, time, the revengeful one
that was jealous of every jovial moments inside single breathe, has changed the
picture, maybe. From there, my eyes couldn’t see nothing but blue of yours,
evilness of yours. Did blue came from evilness? Strange, still, but the fact is
– the vivid things of yours have changed into blue. Monotone, no differences in
the particles of its color, no cracks were permitted in the stable blue. What
if I saw a one, one difference in yours. Maybe I would still be drawing your
memories in mine, instead of writing this letter.
I believe you wouldn’t be surprised this
after reading this. Thinking backwards, I bet I have seen your trembling eyes
and static heartbeats when I was suffering from trembling heartbeats and static
eyes. The fragrance has made me adamant. What if your odor was less intense
thus made me to stop at the moment. It proved to be impossible, but still, I
wish.
Odorless flower and colorless ore seem to
turn vague. Condescending eyes are nevertheless significant. Your eyes were
filled with indifferent hatred scrambled upon pity remained at least, it is now
comprehensible sorrow, now understandable sigh. What if you had sighed first,
before myself. Why did you keep holding this?
Right here, you told me that ‘Estrangement
is the stinkest inendurance’. I couldn’t find out what it means then, but I now
know. What if I knew it first before you let me know.
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